About 10 o'clock. I ran out from the
home, wearing black adidas bag, filled with textbooks and reference books, heavy with the running
one last look, the weight of raw so the shoulder . through a night market selling wholesale items, along a rancid flavor exudes small
River, some 10 minutes walk to discredit mm Even now I can not understand the idea at the time, if now, I million not
can go into a drowned rat take the risk. and then turn it into a construction site we call Street, at best, but a larger alley, on both sides of the walls were painted with
the so-called A brave young
smoke Shaokao Tan and hard life being tortured in the smoke behind the bleary-eyed boss of opening the mouth. All this would seem to be enveloped
night after this a true portrayal of the street. In fact, Only here can bring vitality of the two blocks where there are multicolored lights, a
one is called the is this bar because I promised
small B for the evening will go there looking for him.
the bar very hot, although there is air conditioning, but still appears to tightness, the boss is a lean, middle-aged men, like
light blue cotton shirt color, shaved head, shaved his chin inside the little blue hh, there may be about 160 square meters, but very clean,
was decorated with a tropical rain forest atmosphere. At the time Little B was sitting in the back of a brown round table, stood in front of Coke,
glass door opposite the bar. This is his favorite seat.
Little B is my man child, very the good kind, understanding he was two days of that year, that day at noon he and I play in a cafe
Red Alert, and then I won, he suspected that I cheat, I said I did not, he does not believe that time We are fully familiar with the age may also be smaller and
a relationship, anyway, eventually moved to a fight in the cafe owner to lose by threatening computer before to stop
hand. I remember now the scene, two 14-year-old, also can be described as childish boy, are asking each other angrily
the school's name, a great trend for the future retaliation, but was surprised to find that in fact the same level School
friends. then the embarrassment, has naturally become a joke between them later, careful thought, it seems that experience is the only reason we
friendship, simple, but very sturdy.
When I recall the time, we have to mention something about the school. to my point of view, in general, throw
do not speak the Open University, primary and secondary education system seems to give up no less than China's rule of nearly two thousand years of feudalism, much of its following
Cheng and tap the potential of historical responsibility. so they to ban the pro-Guo Qi the absence of the college entrance examination this killer, I and the small B is a monarchy where the exception strict school. teachers authorized by the parents, the unscrupulous from
, as if the podium following are his dozens of prisoners, kill to shave, at your service you wish.
want the school is really a magical place, went in, almost all of the same people, how will people came out called cursing the damn test.
but soon, I'll compromise, though not satisfied, but still had to do, after all, was just a simple middle
students, adults, beatings still very useful The. Little B is different, too much class as Joe, anyway it is too late, after the end of the test
, I test to the school, and he has to do of a vocational school students, I remember when I look with pity looked at him, think he
is unfortunate. but do not want him looking at me, in the eyes of mercy package is also not hold too much. The result is that I realize that there is a so-called
fortunate position. < br> That night the little B introduced me to many friends, some traces on the streets with his brothers.
small B count their boss, I heard my friend B is a small, incredibly flattery. The rest of the matter would be blurred, just remember that night they
private use of small B, while I was in there sleeping all night. wake up groggy in the morning back to school in early study hall.
in my high school reading people were basically able to go to college without the kind of school, along with principals enrollment rate was 100%
commitment to make the most of the students seem domineering, arrogant. one day listening to talk about a small B, society is also a
University, it is called: Community. until everyone can understand the exact meaning of the university, the principal Cheng extension, therefore I can.
high school that year, I was 15 years old, growing up is not an adult age.
Sometimes, I suddenly thought of this problem of overpopulation in China, and then they go deep into the great family planning policy, and that child then
many reasons. Finally, did he realize to my school so hard the source, but China's basic national policy which is
. In short, my parents sent me a lot of expectations and gender is not clear to me when unilateral
first 30 years of my life to do out a very detailed planning. and to enforce the way to shape their future generations. I graduated from high school will count to 18
years old, that is at least the first 18 years of success, with the percentage of the count, just 60 points, pass. this conclusion out of my big
breath, and self-deception of that bitterness coming to an end, not knowing the current percentage system, the 95 split worry, be called 80 passes.
Unfortunately accepted exam-oriented education for too long, can not judge the whole, did not think this conclusion applies not only to the scope of the examination.
also can include other.
and small B will cool a lot, his parents busy, so the long years of absence, for son's concern, but also a lot of money can only be reflected in the monthly living expenses
on. As we attend to his studies, only ramble on the phone to some preaching. But
students that age, most Treason, for those boring sermons, are Landelikuai. small B after entering the vocational high school, a group of background fact sheets
the same man on the child, wandering around doing nothing after school. or shuttle between the primary and secondary school gate. but
to the school often come to me, wearing a very striking avant-garde clothing, loose to walk in the middle of students to wear school uniforms uniform.
strabismus is not present, a very cunning look. but he never pulled me occupation and a very decadent tone: neither good nor bad, just hovering over 20. with the teacher's words,
is only visible Peking University Tsinghua University, Zhejiang University, National Chiao Tung University hopped and might get hit. It was learned later that there is some exaggerated claims
ingredients, but the results that I still belong to the scope of good relations with the teacher. As for the teacher to see the reason I do not pleasing to the eye,
result is, I naively thought that all the while ignoring the need to listen to your teacher The child will know the truth.
it is no big threat, or injustice and the like. But I do not understand why the same is late for school, but time is left standing by
always rank as test proportional. Of course, this amazing coincidence is often reflected in their reasons for being late is that
lie possibilities. When the amount of occasional coincidence becomes inevitable, I have no value on the teachings of those who appear
disapproval of the.
a long period of time, I won the doctrine of self-righteous, always taught me, the teacher vowed to quell
trouble before, get out. To put it bluntly, that is, patient, there will be some symbol of the dignity of occasional small resistance, but the last are always
is mistaken bow. After all, I will carry with them all the expectations of parents, after all, was the only way the college entrance examination. with our words
, it means compromises. but then one thing makes me a complete break with those compromises. and changed my adherence
10 years of life. was thought to the seriousness of that thing, in fact, also I could endure is the scope of
and the like, not the front row of the offensive have 5, as to why the results as far as I personally think that the mood was good reason not
.
That morning, I made a mistake, with the teacher's words, is my floor of the female students are safely without incident into the classroom, so I let that girl of
, ahead of the class teacher in order to prevent misunderstanding, and then duck and the like chaos point. did not want to, I deliberately slow down
a few seconds, but it became my late , and a group of animals will I do on the behavioral characteristics of a very deep
analogy is probably the bear and the like. and I only made silently listen in the next appearance. In short, he was quite
a sense of accomplishment to the end of preaching, I have wished the same as the other end of the bear ate him.
Then he asked: a.
bike out of gas
core doors, and then poke tire, inner tube pulled the red out, then, both inside and outside the tire to check it again carefully.
and I was standing next to him, face expressionless, looking at everything he does. Just a moment, my mind flashed the
even a thought, this guy can go to repair if you do not teach. Finally, he stood up and shouted proudly to:
Recall the scene then, when this guy is proud to meet those clichés, I was set, his head drooping
, let him make a psychological position to meet. And Nothing came to mind, and sometimes has become a chaotic, good
like trying to find a shadow, but it has no outline. and like the fall from the cliff, only the whirring sound of the wind ear,
looking around the scene very quickly was back on the ground getting closer, but do not despair even voice call out. As for what he said
simply can not remember. just remember the last time he told me to go, and I all sarcastically said to him:
There are some voices, however,
I have not so much. to the small B called and said, look for him at night, so there will be some at the beginning of that scene.
so in a very long period of time after , I have lived a different life. during the day in school, basically a non-
trouble, learning is also a decent guy. surrounded by a lot of friends and the teacher was out of tune. that thing did not trouble
big, after all, the students opened without a bike is not a glorious thing. In short he will ignore the do not ask me, my friends joked,
me he was thought, I also not care about you! However, in the evening, or holiday,
I have day and night and they are mixed with a small B, to the Pacific play Dance Dance Revolution, playing in the exhibition that Sloek. in the night in the cafe
, and piles of piles of friends to meet, of course, in the Realignment some, such as makeup, on the pretext of going to night classes and the like, can easily cross the border. This kind of situation
continued for a long time, almost to the fast time of college entrance examination.
Even now, I have occasionally I miss those days, probably in the last semester of Grade for the city's emerging
family, the Dance Dance Revolution is doing my fashion representatives, many of the city's ; have a particularly fascinated by it.
period of time, our biggest hobby is dancing, along with the heavy metal rock and roll, we are crazy writhing body
footer, to enjoy the vitality of youth to vent Only at that stage the size of one square meter, so big stars big stars down the face
shed sweat, and then the rapid rotation of a 360-degree out of their sway. In the end of vigorous re-tone and cheering onlookers , I
We will . When we dance in great joy, the morning will all go over the back of the head.
then went to drink, a group of people dancing in the streets late at night loud noises, screams of excitement issued in alcohol
stimulation, the chase, the crazy beat, laughing and joking driving a silly joke. whenever nervous
pedestrians hurried around us, the people out of a strange expression of casual and send at them Some strange sounds, and occasionally run into road
side is close lovers, we have more around into a ball, sand with the voice, singing those learned in the online underground music, rap or
Hagou Bang. scared that lovers getaway. looked at the back of panic, we get great satisfaction as
general, issued a strange land Jianxiao. Finally, nothing can be done, it would be like a pool of mud generally , and stagger to close together.
being in a halo spin, and sometimes, we would be late-night cold wind suddenly
awakened, feeling the passion and vitality of all the previous with the sweat slowly out of the body, a saw it the feeling will tiptoe
come gradually occupy the entire body. I rely on each other and the small B and suddenly they no strength, in the eyes
a vast??
a period of time, I think I has become a bully, also known as Lanzi. But think about it seems like not the
course, after all, I did not do anything out of their small B things like fighting and the like. But I know they are a small B done, only that he did not want me to see
, will not let me participate. need me to do is play, enjoy and indulge in after school
back to school to be a good student. But not without any trouble, at least because I also caused some trouble. I remember when should
third year, that night we are in the and drinking. and I, but as an exam the next day and had to sit in the corner to catch up with the low round table math homework. In fact, this situation often happens
, after all, a lot of school work, some tasks are in any case must be completed. Every time, a small B to
brothers do not make noise, let me beside himself with reading. I remember at that time should be about nine, I was solving a two
second function argument problem. just remember to open the glass door of the bar after a few people came. Then I heard later we called the wild
chicken (he claims to be Aberdeen saw a lot of confusion) the guy's voice, very sharp with a unique tone
:
? hh algebra, oh! you
his mother is very cunning it! S is actually in, how? A good student but also to mix. won over, and then looking at the stink face, said: After I talked about this matter can not be determined at the time when the general mood is excitement, fear, or other. But now
I think should not be afraid, because those three guys surrounded me, the small B and his brothers almost
around inside them. number, we have the absolute advantage.
br> , the pheasant and his two younger brother crestfallen to flee out.
Then, they like a fine, continue to play cards, drink. but I am not back to God, his mind was full of small B
Vice cynical expression, at that time, I envy him that kind of expression, it is a free and easy birth. Suddenly,
a deep fear hit me, like the tide in general, will soon be overwhelmed me, that moment, I almost choked. small B
came to pat my shoulder and said: One night, I and small B in the Internet cafe to play two games, came out was almost 10 points. and then we discuss where to go to
supper, walking and talking about boring topics. When we went to ; the bar's door, place a piece
something I will never forget. At that time should be 10:30 or so, the reason why I can so clearly remember the time, nothing more than just
to illustrate this matter the seriousness of that minute details of their long lingering in my mind. It began
caused by a girl, and small B exactly is my classmate in junior high school, and I relationship is the year of the same table,
go any further point is that I like her, but does not recognize the kind of killing.
was a period of time, the small B this Siyaomianzi living death for me attitude complain profusely, and told me some of the various
such as br> a chance to not I would really regret it after a while, and decide the letter
oath Dandan after high school she was sure to happen, no matter. But things are very different and imagination, as if every time and she said when I
will be nervous, unconscious on a loss, there is often not a murder of a time. it has been to
to the way we are all getting along as friends. sophomore last heard of her, when it is a cultural Cobain Good on the boys, and I went off completely
those thoughts, like all hate to think.
she was just a man walks into a bar, I and the small B as he had followed. In my concept , Shu
like her to such a woman to be out of place, but I can only think about it, and no right to make any interference. looking at her wine to two bottles of beer
, a person sitting in a corner of the seat. we decided to say hello to the past, after all, the students, along with a few drinks
is natural. So the three of us sat chatting with some of Chen old thing, is that students about the past or the old
teachers and the like. occasionally issue some dry laugh, and then through the air when drinking.
the first time that night I found out that alcohol has such a terrific girl, in short, in We are a not a word to say
, she more and more bottles before, and I and the small B is basically how not to drink.
small B asked: how it going? clearly see two bright tears in the role of gravity in free
fell.
then she told us a lot about the things between them. turned out that the guy is a playboy, She relied on the old?
bell star? carrying mixed all over the place, often spread in schools some of the girls gossip unclear. and she herself is somehow
received some girls to play to harassing telephone calls and even threats. In short, she has been tortured to rhythm haggard
sad, frustrated frustrated, heartbroken.
when she was in tears, almost incoherent to say these things, I see the trembling of her constantly
thin body, a huge pain immediately took to my heart, my mind kept flashing inside: This is my favorite girl, this is my favorite
hh girl I can not remember how long trance in the end, when the chaos in front of me, and even make some effort not to denounce the
. Finally, leaning on her or small B, called a TAXT, let her go home.
> opened up through the acquaintance relationship between the principal and gave me a warning demerit penalties,
be considered settle the matter. and has continued to spread among the students of my day Look
see me and small B with more than a dozen brothers at the school gate to block off the Gongzaigeer.
Then we dragged this boy in a remote alley and took him around the middle. The
weekdays pampered little master has long been a pale, sweating followed by one, down a stream. where he met such a battle. look at his peace of
Jingjing looks like, I feel very funny He is really sad, useless. a feeling of disgust over the invasion immediately, the pigs and dogs than
thing is simply a pile of dog feces!
meal beat nature is indispensable, and I and the small B station the side, watching this kid squatted on the ground, her head, and constantly
shouting for mercy. Psychological suddenly filled with the pleasure of revenge last night. backlog of resentment in his heart open to dissipate gradually. can not help but think
: Why is she like this guy?
soon, this kid will not. like a loose sand beach general paralysis on the ground. small B in the past warned him a few words, and then make
on homeopathic kicks. In general , the day we played a very back, alley entrance has long been filled to watch the people around, to see us come out blatantly, very cunning
look immediately like the plague Similarly, the spread around.
scattered populations in I saw she was standing there, sweating profusely, obviously ran just the way, probably
is how I see it revenge for him. At that time, my face filled with proud expression, went over to her straight. I came
front of her, looking at her, then she goes on inside the lovely mouth spit out two words: hooligans.
Later, a group of us would sleepwalk Back to the > With a lot of people go, so it should be amazed by it.
and then they think about nothing, just drink, drink a lot, until you fall asleep.
to about nine o'clock, when a small B said: All the fatigue. the rest of my
and small B wandering aimlessly in the empty street, we seem to have their own minds, all the way without a word. Occasionally, cars will be rolled cold
After the car from the side and use the engine noise will be torn to pieces by the surrounding silence.
See all selected users in the broken places. courage! Ha ha hee hee opposite
walked over, a lot of nasty sound issue. One voice is very sharp with a unique tone. Obviously,
a pheasant that crowd. then I thought, Damn, actually encounter these bastards! more bad luck, they also found us,
separated by more than 10 meters in the distance, they both stopped. At that time, I have two hand tightly , feeling the hand of a large number of liquid infiltration
heart out. I did not see the small B expression, I think, he should not much better. After all, who
Diao again not in such extreme adverse circumstances hero hero. and then in just a few seconds, flashed through my mind out of the
two sentences. The first sentence is the second is probably such as br> point almost as much as I do!
I cast of the leg, that has never ran so fast, ears filled with the whirring of the wind, feel the heart of dramatic action to jump
. With tight channeling with the sound of footsteps behind which the huge fear welling up. Later, two legs grew heavy and small b are panting behind them. then I think maybe this is really finished.
Fortunately, in the first four blocks at a taxi passenger after the stop down there, we were channeling up, launch vehicle legislation
moment, an instant rejection partners to put that much pheasant , and I thought, finally escaped.
we let the driver casually around a walk, there is no purpose, just come to realize we found that the city did not seem to have a
are settled we can place too late, is not back home. cafes in that dirty air can make people feel too tired
. looking out the window lined up in front of colorful neon lights back off, feeling the kind of saw it returned to the body. a sense of < br> to the endless waves of empty hh
that day, I have been in a dull, depressed state, holding the books all day long review, buy piles of piles of papers proposed model
, back some very, very long words. was already approaching a clinic, school work, many papers also have crazy together.
pace of life has become increasingly close as the test strain, as if breathing a mess up. I'm too late to think about what,
no destination to adhere to. all day long just to learn and learn again. Yes, that time is dark, dark.
only at the weekend, I will go to Repeat
to destroy the nervous system. this strange state until the end of the examination of a patient.
the results of a patient reasonably well, basically it was very disappointing. That afternoon my good mood, in the the bar and brother were all the talk, brother
. and then a small b, said: stir in the small b laughter greeted me back, but also the cynicism that look.
I smiled, waved to him no alternative. Then he went out.
Later it was a brother told me about the day out of the users of small b is an MA pheasant, small b
be at least 30 people surrounded them, and other brothers to find him later, he has been sent to the hospital, I heard something like kidney
out of trouble, along with a little blood in the brain. people that passed out and did not wake up for a long time. Later, the hospital where there is no way
, his father took him to go with Beijing. Soon, everything all set within a week. And the stars
work hard on it I was in school. listen to the meaning of his father, probably not later will come back, anyway Foundation is also there, do not use the back
.
when I hear, head blank, to be honest, just can not believe it, but fact is that,
Small b gone, not dead, but probably also see the future. Suddenly, I feel all this is who the prank, how
so fast? In addition to the smiling faces of cynicism that probably there is no remaining What the. my heart to have muttered curse: fuck,
out ass Ah!
looked to the small b home, locked steel doors, knocking, nothing happened. On the way back, I think a lot,
but nothing seems to have thought. a memory disorder, fragmented hh
few months later I went to college entrance examination, then a few months later I wrote the above text .
I still remember the high school that Sunday night, I ran out alone from home, carrying the bag adidas, bag
face a wide variety of textbooks, reference books, papers. it is parents and teachers the expectations for me, I have
good also with the ideal of the rancid distributed in crossing the river, I do it to them again?
future article, I the novel to see this sentence: Sometimes I even wonder if those engraved in my mind has been deeply rooted in what seems to
it just bored adolescent in some of the illusion, but I think there are always small B, as well as his cynical
contemptuous expression, it is Once I want to have, but has never got. and only then, I realized that the original
come they do exist, but when the passion has long vanished, along with the naive in the past, as a youth
was never part of the memory storage in the chaos.
Yes, I have the most dynamic, energetic 16,17-year-old lost in the
days, I forgot to pick up hh
them the first part of our era of enlightenment in mind
security research in the back bedroom of the way, ducks Paul told me that this semester is out research prepare candidates posted on the bulletin board. to the cafeteria bulletin board at the edge
, where already crowded with piles of piles of students, chattering into a downtown.
the preparation of a total of 56 candidates, Computer Science 18 places assigned to implement the end, it was only ...
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